Trusting the Process is Not Easy

Gogo_Noma
Dec 4
2 min read

Thokozani Badimo Child

March 2025 carried me through the process code, teaching me that sometimes the storm is not punishment — it’s just weather. Temporary. Passing. A moment in motion, not a message of doom.

That morning, we woke up to heavy rain. There was no sign or promise that the sun would show itself. I couldn’t imagine holding service in that weather, so I sent out an urgent message canceling everything. “Stay inside, keep warm, take care of yourself,” I told everyone.

And then…

At 10h30, the rain stopped.

A little later, the sun broke through.

I was left sitting with one question:

“Why didn’t I trust the process?”

For many, the sunshine felt like relief. A blessing.

But for the first time in my life, the sun brought disappointment — because it revealed my lack of trust. It showed me how quickly I chose fear over flow.

But Spirit sat with me gently.

Spirit sat with me in pride.

Because even though I felt I had failed, I saw the test. And more importantly, I learned the lesson.

Next time, with the wisdom I carry now, I will do better. Because now… I know better.

Badimo Child, we often look at our “mistakes” as failure. But truly, the mistake was the lesson. The only failure is staying stuck in disappointment.

Dust yourself off, and remember this truth:

If you went back to that moment, you would make the same decision — because that version of you didn’t yet know what you know today. And that’s okay.

Growth does not erase the past versions of you; it transforms them.

As you were reading, old memories probably surfaced. Moments you still judge yourself for. But hear me clearly:

You are not that person anymore.

Stop being disappointed in who you were.

Be proud of who you are now.